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rambut = kawan

I have no classes today. and i just woke up. bangun2. trus minum coka cola. utk juadah berbuka puasa harini. Yes..alhamdulillah. so far dpt puasa walaupun utk hari kedua. hopefully aku boleh puasa utk 6 hari lagi. or 7. period tlg lah jgn ganggu. pls let me at least do smthing "berguna" utk diri sndiri. i have nothing else to eat or cook. nk mkn nasi ngn telur lagi? hmm..dh bosan lah. dh mkn 2 kali for this week. ada biskut merrie. slalu..bile mkn 2-3 keping trus rs bosan dh. so. mls jgk. nk msk bende lain? i have daging dlm fridge. bwg hbs. kicap tinggal 2ml. so..cannot cook. dats why i opened up the fridge. n trus minum coke tu. btw im not really hungry.

tengah minum air coke tu. sambil duk dpn heater, sambil main2 rambut. tibe2 terfikir..

rambut ni.. macam kawan lah. or vice versa. kawan ni.. macam rambut lah..

why? play with ur hair.. im talking about hair on ur head. not on anywher else. if u just take a glance at ur hair. u see they all look the same. if u have wavy hair. u see them all look wavy. but if u play with them. u can feel them. some are smooth. some tend to rasa cm kasar.. and bila take a closer look. ada yg sbnrnya stret..ada yg wavy.. ada yg tebal sket.ada yg nipis.. ada yg ada split ends.. ada yg berbuah..

sesetengah rambut ni.. kite kena cabut.. mcm rambut gatal. org kata lah.. and setiap hari pulak.. rambut manusia akan gugur. so imagine lah. like ur frens. they all are in the same category. frens. but not all are good frens. some r bad. some pretend to b frens but theyr actually ur enemy. some frens leave u.. and some just need to be ditched. only the good frens stay.

*teguk air coke dan berfikir lagi*

harini aku nk buat apa? next week rabu jumaat exam. tak study lagi. next week slase lab. experiment mcm **** plak tuh. next week monday cuti. dat is so gay. tiket blk msia dh beli. bile nk beli tiket balik sini pulak? tak tahu. i dont know bile nk blk sini. and i dont know either if i shud attend their grad ceremony. come on. its a boring event. dah la kene paksa beli hadiah. pastu nnti kene fikir pasal nak amik research apa next year. honestly. i have no interests at all in electrical bullshit engineering. paling benci skali bab semi conductor. and then again. kene fikir plak psl keje. sbb nnti next year interview merata-rata. PUN tak de minat nak pegi. wonder if ther is anything wrong with me?

*minum coke lagi. rs cm nk tidur balik lah..*

tibe2 terfikir pulak. maybe i shud go see a shrink.

L untuk Lapar

Malam bukan lagi malam. Siang bukan lagi siang pada aku. Aku tidur di siang hari. Bangun di malam hari. Jarang sekali aku bertemu dgn matahari. Tidur lewat, bangun btul2 sebelum pegi skolah, balik skolah tidur lagi. Kadang2 aku rasa, lama betul xpegi skolah. Sebab class dah sikit. Jarang2 plak tu. Tgk2 kalendar, dh tengah November dh ni. Cepatnye Ya Allah.. exam pn dh dkt. and aku pn 1 hape pn x study lagi. rasa pegi skolah utk amik kedatangan je. Wats wrong with me.. i got the most powerful headache in my life tadi. as far as i remember la. Sampai pegang2 kepala meringkuk kt katil.. smpai la tertido. Bangun tido pn stil sakit. but now dh xde la.. i wish i have my own mri machine. Been wanting to scan myself dr dulu lagi. But i always have no guts at all to say to anyone. especially my mum.. Bila jadi mcmni. Mcm2 la bende aku fikir. what if i this.. what if i that.. etc etc.. Then tepengaruh ngn drama plak. greys anatomy lah.. mcm2..

hmm.. hidup ni.. tak selalu indah.. langit pun xselalu cerah sayang..

bila kita sakit perut..

..mesti lah kita consider dulu. sama ada sakit perut tu perlu pergi toilet atau tidak. Kalau x ketara sangat sakit tu, xyah pegi pun xpe kot. But if perlu, so pergi lah. Tak baik tahan2 ni.. hehe..

Mukaddimah je.

Macam biasa lah. nothing to crap about. makin hari makin hilang idea on what to write. nasib la x keje jd writer kan. Mau silap hari bulan kene kubi! (pecat. dlm bahasa jepun)

dulu b4 dtg sini.. hati waku-waku (bedebar + sronok) sangat. tapi skang dh final sem third year kt sini. hati ni dh xtahan dh. nk balik. tu je yg difikir. stdy cmne xkisah. whatever. kalau duk rumah kan. . .

1. bleh mkn sedap (rindu sgt nugget ramly... )

2. bleh kluar suka hati asalkan ada kete (of course la ada curfew)

3. bila hati sakit, bleh kluar shopping, habiskn duit (ni hat plg best skali!)

4. ada port nak lepak malam2 (if x duduk rumah la..)

5. BOLEH MAKAN MCDONALDS DAN LAIN2 (tp kt sini ada je bdk laki yg balun. cuma tak beli menu babi je)

6. Muvi kt Msia best. muvi kt sini dah la xbest. lambat plak tu release.

7. Kat Msia bleh usha org Melayu. (org mlayu kt sini dh la sikit. pastu plak nasib xbaik dpt stock2 yg ....... faham2 lah kan) Orang jepun blambak. Tapi..yg bleh diusha plak sikit je..

8. Bosan2 ptg2.. Boleh pg kedai runcit dkt ngn rumah, beli air kotak Milo =(

9. Boleh tgk TV yg mcm2 rancangan best2. (sini sme ngarut2)

10. Boleh pegang kete. (kat sini.. huh.. cm bazir duit je kongsi kete..)

11. Kat rumah xyah fikir teruk2 nk masak apa. Sebab nk beli brg senang!

12. Kat rumah boleh jalan2. Ada ruang tamu, dining hall, bilik tido, boleh main2 kucing kt luar rumah. Tapi sini, bilik cam kotak, tak boleh nk jalan2 sgt. Plg teruk pun Toilet-dapo. Huh..Ibarat duduk rumah TAPI, xpenah keluar bilik.

13. Kat Msia ada roti canai yang bukan segera.

Dan mcm2 lagi lah.. Dulu xpnah fikir pun bende ni b4 dtg sini. Dulu tau nk dtg sini je. Matlamat selepas tu x fikir langsung. That is why, after grad i xtau nk buat apa. Proceed study? Keje sini? Huh.. langsung x terlintas dlm otak. Lain la if aku jenis slumber duduk serumah dgn boifren.. itu mmg aku rasa cm xbalik msia je dah kot. Sini bknnye ada org dtg check! (nk bwk blk bdk jepun pun OK!) Ala.. if aku slumber duduk ngn boifren pun.. nk duduk ngn sape?? Boifren pun xde.. Berangan sudah.. Maybe tu patut jd matlamat aku yg seterusnya. Cari boifren. Ha-ha.

2349

Aku masak nasi ni. Lapar la pulak. Lauk soto tu ada lagi. Ha. Soto tu kan. rasa pelik giler. kaler mcm kari. Rasa pulak mcm kari + kurma. Memang soto muar mcmtu ke? aku xpenah la mkn soto mcmtu. Soto dlm imaginasi aku is.. kuah mcm sup tu.. mkn ngn nasi impit, ayam carik, sambal kicap, su'un goreng. Time raya. Ke? Tah.. Mati2 ingt soto tu rasa cmtu.. Oh ye. aku br bgn tido nih. Cacat kan. tido kul 7. Bangun kul 11. The problem is the weather la. Kul 430 dh magrib. Then isyak kul 6. So, after isyak tu for sure rasa ngantuk. Dan disebabkan aku ni susah nk tido, so bila ngantuk tu cpt2 la masuk slimut. Sebab tu je chance nk boleh tido dgn senang. Masalah is, tido xkena waktu..Dah. Nak gi mkn nasi. Tata..

same subject

Why do i always have to dream of the same subject huh?? Dulu rajin la jgk i jot them down. Some dreams that i remember bila bangun tidur. But now, mcm dah tahap malas nk jot them down. Not that I'm sick of having the same subject to dream about. But all im asking n wanting to know badly is WHY. its been like..forever.. since last february. Every week wajib ada mmpi about the subject. Huh.. i tink im sick lah.. definitely..

i dont travel dat much . but my biological clock semua dh x betul. tido kul 6. bgn kul tgh hr. then pg cls. balik tido lg. bgn kul 11 mlm. n stay awake smpai 6 pg. then the cycle repeats. ive tried so hard to sleep at around 10/11pm. tapi, slalu fail. ill end up bgn, click2 computer. tup2 dh kul 3. and then decided nk stay up lama sket. nk tunggu subuh (kul 430). then bile tdo after subuh.. hr isnin kene bgn awal plak. kul 9 ada cls. mmg mamfus la. ngntuk. sakit kepala. then blk cls tgh hr tu.. cnfrm tido. boring btul lah..

Happy Birthday Nanie

Slept at around 9pm kot.. Got up few minutes ago. Xramai org wish. But it's okay. I've expected that. What's unexpected was.. got a misscall from my little brother. Hehe..so, i called him back.. Ohh..maxis yg bodoh. Dan maybank2u yg bodoh jgk. Maxis bg msg ckp i can call any maxis for free for my bday. And i tried, but they told me to topup. Dang. Nombor gua dh expired dh la.. Maka, aku cpt2 nk login maybank2u. Yg brengset-nye..diorg tgh mentenen ke hape tah la..yg pasti xleh login. Huhh.. Okay. aku dh msg adik, suruh die tlg topup. Hopefully ada. n hopefully dat free call works internationally too!

BTW!

Harini satu hari tonton drama Rahsia Hati. Sebab aaron aziz kekasih imaginasi ku itu berlakon. And i cooked also today. I made lemon chicken, mashed potato (burnt sket.tp maseh sdp), and celur some mixed vege. Damn the lemon sauce. Giler sdp laaahhhhhh . haha. bkn nk blagak ke apa. tp mmg sdp!! ada lebih sikit kuah tu and gravy mashed potato pn ada lebih. ayam perap pn ada lg. nnti esk goreng lg lah. tapi....black pepper plak hbs. utk mashed potato. ala...mlsnye nk gi beli. haihhh...

OKAY.

yg bes nye.. Before i fall asleep td.. i prayed.. i wanted to meet aaron aziz in my dreams. Hahaha.. sengal kan.. heyyy... but it works okay! i dreamt there were a bunch of people yg i xkenal.. diorg tgh sibuk organize a birthday party for me. And of course lah aaron aziz is one of them =) bes lah. hihi.. sronok sgt!

Okay lah. dh xtau nk tulis apa. Apa2 pun it sucks dat my adik topup, n i havent got the topup yet. Haihh..

Dream

i know i cn be awarded the dream-psycho gold or platinum award. Mimpi aku sme best2. Tapi yg mcm shait nye aku lupa!! pagi td nk sgt cite kt smone sbb mmg takut lupa. i even searched for a farking pencil to jot down somewher. tapi xsempat sbb dh lmbt nk gi class. dem la.. shudve done it!! now i forgot the dream. totally.. =(

oh gay!!!!!!!!! now i remember.!!! hahahahahha

okay3. like dis one. i dreamt, my teacher suddenly come to me and tell me a bad news. which is.. i failed his paper, n that i have to repeat it. yg sedihnye, aku sorang2 je yg fail =( yg peliknye.. sensei tu ajar subjek psl kmputer tau. time aku buka soalan tu..page awal2 tu mmg psl kmputr. tp blakang2 tu mcm dh masuk literature je. rupe2nye.. ada sensei lain ckp aku fail subjek dia jgk, which is literature..n die dh compile skali. suruh aku jwb. mcm haram jeeeee. yg pasti aku sgt pelik nape aku bleh fail paper tu sbb apparently, dlm mmpi tu aku ingt aku bleh jwb dgn jaya skali paper midterm. dan masalah lg satu.. paper repeat tu mcm bedebah punye susah! i bleh jwb fes page je! dh la bende tu byk page! time aku repeat exam tu..bleh je nk mniru. sbb sensei tingglkn aku sorang2 dlm bilik ni.. die ckp nnti pukul 3 die dtg. ada skali tu tgk jam mcm kul 12 kot.. aku rasa cm nk givup..aku balik rumah jap.mkn2 tgh hari sme.. siap bleh tgk tv. ada cite lakonan catriona ross dgn si adi putra hensom tuh.(ni msti sbb aku suke sgt kt citer Kalis Cinta. diorg yg blakon.sape blum tgk, pg tgk! kt utube ada!) hahahahaha. lawak laaaaaaaa. siap bleh gelak2 lg time tgk tv tu. pastu dh hbs drama tu.. glabah giler tgk jam, pastu pg balik kt bilik tu..nk jwb part literature tu. pastu kt situ tbe2 ada tertulis..

(bahagian ini hendaklah dijawab pada pukul 3-9)

pastu aku berfikir. hah?? lama giler exam!! smpai kul 9 mlm ke??!! mampusss laaa!! lpstu br aku btul2 givup. hahaha. i just left the room without leaving any messages to the teachers. hahahah. fuh. lpstu mmpi pelik. yg ni la yg aku xingt. haha..

pasni nk pg mkn sushi. then ptg ni ada kena paksa-tak-rela menjadi guide utk plajar thailand yg dtg melawat. sib baik kene ckp inggeris. haaaa.bile nk pg beli gas ni nanie??!

besok laaa... kay2?? besok kay? pleaseee.... >_<

Dinner. Makan male

Ni lah dinner aku mlm ni. Sedih x. Perut cm tgh vibrate2 dah ni =(

Okay3! Taubat laaaaaaaaaaaa. esok aku pegi beli gas sndirik laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! Tapi nk msk apa pn xtau. subbunjut dh hbs. kicap tinggal sikit. minyak pn sikit. ada ayam daging. tp nk msk apaaaaa. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa. >_<

sneak peak at my comic. tp yg ni xleh publish. :P sori mori ye. sori la gmbr cm xbes. mls nk gne sony. gne henfon je.

shit lah. gua lapar.. xleh konsentret apa2 ni. nk type pn mcm br lepas amik dadah je, jari xleh kawal.ok bai!

Hakkuchuu!

the title is a sound when u make while u sneeze. No? may differ every person. some might "hachum", "ahhhahhhh", "hachunnnnn" or whatever. Well, im sneezing right now (because br bgn tito), and i find it forking annoying. everyday i wake up, wajib sneeze and a tiny2 bit of sore throat. And so im wondering. am i having the disease people call resdung? But i know resdung mesti comes with lots of pimple and oily skin. Ke..? i dont tink i have that.. Or is it just my nose dat is forking sensitive? i know japan sgt byk la habuk dia. Kat rumah (di malaysia) pulak, i always tersumbat hidung n sneeze every morning, but that i know why. sebab hari2 tido dgn aircond. n aircond tu mmg xpnah nk service pun. so byk habuk. and org resdung ni.. die punye masalah hidun bukan lama ke? i mean, the sneezing or hingus2.. mine ni..slalu after mandi die ok.. alaa...xmo la resdung. >_<>

Smalam was chatting with my fren. die tgh teman kakak die pg rebonding. FOR FREE. sebab they own the spa. dayummmm so forking jeles. T_T i told him i want a free rebonding too. this march. sbb ill b coming back again. but he said the spa dh nk kena jual.. so xtau la bln 3 nnti still they own them or not. Haih.. so sad one.. :( I realli3 hope they wont sell it b4 march. Sebab my hair ni dh pjg. Length is >50cm. So, if rebonding kt kedai, kalau takde offer, mau mencecah rm300+. Last time i did was 2 years ago ke eh? That time tgh ada offer. n my hair time tu pun 2inches lebih sikit dr paras bahu. Itu dgn offer pun rm200. Kalau la without offer cmne? alaaaaa...pls laaaaaaaa....wait for meee dulu br jual spa tu plssssss >_<

Masih kebuntuan. Ku tak tahu apa patut ku lakukan. Patutkah ku keluar dan mencari sesuap nasi? Patutkah ku keluar saje2? Tapi yg pasti, ku patut mandi. Dan selepas itu akan ku sambung berfikir. Sedang elok bukan. Tiba2 rasa nk dgr lagu Dirty Mouth - Hot Hot Heat. Cheh. sungguh perli betul.

What you do when you cannot sleep

1. Buka fb (lame n boring)

2. Garu kepala, mata tekebil2 tgk David Beckham's giant poster kt dinding.

3. You feel like peeing, but malas nk pegi toilet.

4. Your hidung tersumbat, n a little bit of sore throat some more, you're just so annoyed!

5. You fikir dat ada lg 2-3 hari usia nk mencecah 22 thn.

6. You blog. duh..

7. Mata gatal.. So, u gosok n tenyeh2 smpai sakit

8. You tink about him..

9. You off sme "use-to-communicate-softwares" such as ym, msn, fb chat, skype, voip etc.

10. You tink of what else you shud write about on ur blog

11. You tink why everytime you feel like u've slept for 8hours+, it's actually 4hours.

12. You nk minum hot cocoa, but mls jgk nk pg dapo masak air bancuh cocoa etc etc. Sejuk!

13. The digital watch kat tgn tibe2 bunyik titit! menandakan dh pukul 5pagi.

14. You have headache (lagi.asyik2 headache je.xnk pg hospital check ke ha? - xnak)

15. Esok cls tgh hari. sila remind urself about it

16. Garu kepala lagi

17. Main rambut..then sakit hati sbb byk rambut gugur..lagi sakit hati bila tgk rambut2 tu kt carpet.

18. (pg toilet, pee. finally!) + kutip rambut kt carpet otw pg toilet

19. Masak air, buat hot cocoa.

20. Fikir esok nk mkn apa.. hari2 masalah. sbb gas hbs. and kalau nk msk, kene fikir nk gune rice cooker. so, malas. Maybe beli apa2 je lah kt koperasi skolah.

21. Duduk termenung

22. Bukak lagu best kt iTunes

23. Termenung lagi..

24. You look around ur room and say.. byknye brg..sepahnye..

25. Fikir lps cls esok nk buat apa. Sebab esok xde cls.

26. Nak main game. tapi, xtau game apa yg patut dimain.

27. You spend ur time just browsing..

28. You suddenly wonder why the internet is so like shit today..

29. Finished my cocoa

30. You tweaked your blogger template. (i hate XML templates)

31. Hidung plak gatal, and mukus start kluar..

32. Tisu kotak hbs so ur gonna have to guna limited tisu packet, but xnak guna sbb nk save utk skolah.

33. Kopek kulit kt bibir

34. My eyes feel weird now. Maybe i shud continue sleeping.

35. Goodnight goodnight

36. Main piano seround b4 masuk slimut.

thanxa lot to ****. for this gorgeous poster :)

Thrust (buang h)

mm.. so.. evrything is true.. xsia2 aku percaya kat my own feelings..n 6th sense. or whatever u wanna call it. its painful to know.. but its true. nothing u can do about it. all i can do at the mean time is just sit here. and finish my hot cocoa i just made.. but i have to think less about it. or i wont be able to sleep again lps ni. besok dah la ada lab. benci. tapi, grateful dpt labmate yg okay.. kat luar tu still bunyik rintik2 hujan yg turun. guess i have to walk to school lagi esok. hello. i xleh accept manusia yg naik basikal bwk payung. gosh i can never balance the bike gune 1 tgn je. hrtu almost jatuh sbb i was trying to pegang the payung.n nk cross the road. nasib laa umurku panjang lagi.. btw, td pun..almost kena run over dgn kete.. dh la laju..xde inisiatif langsung nk break.. i dh cross jln tu half.then undur sbb kete tu laju. but time i undur tu..ida dh jln half kedepan n jerit suruh i lari jgk. so..by the time i tgh cross tu.kete tu sgt dkt dgn i.. reminds me of kejadian hampir kena langgar motor kt um dulu. tu pun mmbe yg slamatkn aku. die tarik aku.. so dat the motor xlanggar aku.. tp kalau la td..aku xsempat nk undur/ke depan.. xde sape bleh tarik aku.. Thank you Allah.. Kau dah panjangkn umurku..walau beberapa seken/jam/hari/tahun.. smoga umurku panjang lg.. dan yg penting, aku nk bertaubat dulu b4 mati.. hmm.. ya Allah.. help me please.. guide me..and make me strong.. strong enuff to face all the things that is happening.. and strong enuff to face the future.. amin..

37.7celcius

According to my soon-to-be-a-doctor cousin, I'm having a mild fever. Ouch.. Since yesterday I've been monitoring my temperature. Ada la dalam 37.3, 37.5, 37.7, 37.6. I had a sore throat yesterday. Dah minum air suam, n dh mkn 2 ubat sakit tekak (gula2). And good dat its much much much better now. But having a slight headache and lenguh kt "perut" (sbb period first day and then i decided to WALK to school today), because its raining! and its still raining until now!

i got back from school pukul 12, balik pecat baju, bra, sluar, trus crawl masuk slimut sambung tido. sbb smlm i slept at 6am+(pg td bgn kul 8). Yes. My biggest problem. masalah susah nak tido. masalah byk sgt fikir smpai xleh nk lelap. So, i slept, n woke up at around 330pm. bangun kemas bilik sket (still sepah. xde beza langsung), mkn beger ikan, n watch serendipity (yet another favourite movie. watched like lots of times) And now tgh scan few gambarajah dlm buku teks eksperimen.

Malas bukan?

Buat report tulis tgn, tp gambar litar sme fotostat (pastu nak ngaku sbg seorang pelajar kejuruteraan elektrik dan elektronik.piiiraaahhh) ihihihi.. thanx to this all-in-one printer of HP. my eyes hurt la btw. pedih2 gitu.

And i learned one thing today. Jangan cuba buka air tin jika menyimpan kuku yg panjang, melainkan jika anda seorang pro. Nasib baik kuku aku xpatah td.. haih.. tp air ni sungguh sdp >_<>_<

Actually thers another para missing here. stupid la blogger ni. tibe2 hilangkn plak. xsmpt nk save. And my other problem is, i ni STM=short term memory. SO, I FORGOT THE WHOLE THING I WROTE IN THE LAST PARA. mcm shit je. OKLAH. nk smbung buat report.

**** (somewhat a little bit explicit)

People eat, drink, sleep, bangun tido they shit n crap. even shit about other people. dah xde keje lain ke nak buat? bajet sendiri tu dah paling bagus la..? takde maknanya pergi surau/masjid/khutbah/dakwah/badan2 keagamaan tapi jika dah mempunyai mulut dan sifat yg mcm shit tu. dats the worst unpaid part/full time job in this world. Weird how they seem to get along very well, but when one of them is not around, the other will start shitting about the person. That leaves me in a.. like a.. (mouth opened, jaws dropped, eyes wide open. shocked) so, i tutup mulut balik and just listen to their shitting. How unbelievable people are kan. Talam dua tiga empat muka. The reason u guys get along is because you get the privi-fuckin-ledge of using the cars. And some of us yg hanya berkenderaankan basikal ni lah yg sering terbiar dan semacam sengaja dilupakan. (kami terdiri dari 3-4-5-6 org) And ftw with the "new policy" : sape lambat tinggal. Hoo..sdp la ckp. dah ada kete.. bleh bwk sesuki hati.. try put urself in our panties plak la. Then u kno la how cruel of people to just not trying to wake ur frens up and then nk ckp sape lmbt tinggal. **** la wei.. Takpe la..Tuhan sentiasa adil.. another thing is. Please stop bragging. i dont like (hate actually) people who brag a lot. evrything from what they wear to what they eat to what their shit look like. Sebab apabila aku dgr ko brag, nnti hati aku yg jahat ni akan mengutuk ko dlm hati, maka aku dh terjebak dlm dosa bukan? So, tlg la stop k.

second bab : family

shit happens. face it. i wonder wher in this world yg betul2 ada live happily ever after family. must b very2 the very rare kan. one of my hugest(biggest) reason of not getting married.

babai. nak pegi kencing. xtahan >_<

The Holiday

This film is one of my favourites. Ive watched it like more than twice. When im bored, i watch it. When im eating, i watch it too. I dunno why. I love all the characters in it. I love the soundtracks. I love the plot of the story itself! aaaaaaaa... wish i cud go on a holiday like dat ALONE as well.. (nanie pengecut). Well, im planning on a vacation this Winter hols (2weeks.just like in the movie) But xsure lg nk pg mana. Tak jadi balik malaysia. Kerna kenduri ditangguh ke bln 3 harap maklum. Anyway. Here's the links to this movie! download! mesti!! dan tonton yaa!!

^^

part 1

part 2

part 3

part 4

part 5

part 6

part 7

part 8

When

aku sedih.. aku nangis..

aku sakit.. aku nangis..

aku keciwa.. aku nangis..

aku tension.. aku nangis..

aku rasa nak nangis.. aku nangis lagi..

but yg aku xtahan skali is bila aku sakit..

it hurts so fucking much dat at one point, aku rasa nk amik pisau baru kt dapo tu n stab my chest.

but i know.. dat way it will feel a lot more worse.

and dat is not a good ending to my life.

i still have to worry about my deeds to "support" my life "there".

so, i changed my mind.

i wish.. i cud lose all these memories.

and start a new leaf.

Sepah

(Tiada satu perkataan inggeris pun yang akan ditaip dalam pos kali ini)

Bilik sepah. Barang2 sepah. Habis madu, sepah dibuang. eh...ni maksud lain plak. hehe.. Perutku tgh lapar sgt ni. Otakku pula serabut memikirkan macam2 masalah dalam hidupku. Masalah belajar, masalah lapar, masalah kesihatan, masalah kegemukan, masalah jiwa, masalah keluarga, dan macam2 lagi.

skang aku tgh buat laporan eksperimen yang patut dihantar tgh hari besok, tengah menggodam permainan, tgh kelaparan juga. Skang dh pukul 7. bilalah agaknye akan disiap laporan ini. Haih.. penat. lapar. cptla siap! Harini kelas habis awal. pukul 11 sudah ku pulang. Tetapi, sehingga kini aku masih belum menukar pakaianku lagi. Malas bukan? Ye. Itulah Nanie. Malas, gemuk, tak cantik, nakal, fikiran biru, suka lengah2, kadangkala licik dlm perbuatannya, masakan ada org laki2 yg akan menyukaiku bukan? (tak mungkin tak mungkin)..

Semalam, hadiah harijadi ku untuk tahun ini telah ku dapat. Setakat ini ku puas hati, namun hanya 98% sahaja. Kenapa? baiklah, sebelum itu, biar aku beritahu kamu semua apakah yang telah kubeli. Aku telah belikan utk diriku sebuah telefon bimbit yang baru di ebay.com. Berharga dalam lebih kurang rm800 termasuk penghantaran. Ia adalah model Sony Ericcson W960i. Sebelum membelinya aku telah berfikir panjang. Aku telah bertanya kepada agak ramai juga lah, namun ramai yg menyuruh aku membeli telefon bimbit yg lain. Aku pun pelik kenapa? Bagi aku, telefon model ini sudah cukup bagiku spesifikasinya. Tapi org lain suruhku beli model yg lebih canggih. Tapi aku tetap nk yg ni jugak. Pedulilah.. Jadi, knape aku x puas hati lagi 2%? Kerana, mata aku yg sgt peka terhadap bende2 kecil ini telah nampak kesan calar yg sgt sikiiiiitttt.. yg mungkin org lain tidak akan perasan pun. Aku ada terfikir nk pulangkn telefon itu, tapi sebab aku malas nak uruskn penghntrn, dan menunggunya lagi utk beberapa lama, maka aku pun berkata "xpelah nanie..".. jadi, aku xhntr baliklah telefon itu.

ia! aku sudah siapkan 1 soalan. masih ada 2 soalan, dan selepas itu habislah laporan aku ini. dan selepas ini, aku nak masak megi kari, menggunakan periuk nasik. kerna, aku sudah kehabisan gas. Aduh.. laparnye............. Aku rasa, cukuplah aku merepek setakat ini. hingga ketemu lagi di masa akan datang, jika panjang umur, insyaAllah.. assalamualaikum..

bangun pagi. xmandi xgosok gigi

aku tido lmbt smlm. kul 5 kot. buat report smpai 50%. pulun sambil main game. and niat mmg nk bgn awal giler hrni kalau bleh kul 8. and ok la. skang ni 830 aku terjaga. sbb apa aku bgn awal?? sebab xsaba giler nk dpt pack EMS aku nih. my early bday gift. tapi gift ni xleh bukak time bday la.. kene bukak asap.

my story is. aku dh la bgn dgn pening kepala sbb xcukup tido.. pastu bgn sbb nk call pos ofis mntk hntr brg tu cpt.. yg angkt tlefon ni plak makcik tua yg mcm haram. ckp dh la xsopan. pekak mcm badak pulak tu. nk kene repeat2 plak. bile aku suh hntr cpt die bley plak ckp "mana bley. its from 9-12" xsempat aku nk hbskn ayat aku ckp aku nk kluar kul 10. mmg sial giler. ckp pn kurang ajar. ltk telefon cpt2 xckp pn thanx for calling apa. eiiii...saba je la.. dah xlama dah kot makcik tu..

Cerita panjang

Skang nih..gua tgh makan skittle. Sape tau? Cekelat ni sdp..sambil mngunyah ngunyah ni..sambil aku berfikir panjang.. tentang macam2 hal yg berlaku sejak dua tiga empat lima enam menjak nih..hmm.. xtahu di mana harus aku mulakan cerita aku ni.. haritu.. hari slase.. fes day lab utk sem ni. Punye la confiden aku takkan dpt experiment yg kt tmpt baru tu. Sbb sesungguhnya aku mmg xtau..kt mana tmpt tu. Tapi, time tgh naik tangga ngn kosmet, tbe2 berdetap kt hati aku ni. Suatu rasa firasat yg kuat mengatakan aku kene experiment tu. So dgn bedebar, langkah kaki aku naik ke tingkt 4 …smpai la kt papan kenyataan.. trus tgk nama aku, (plg bes duk jepun ni, kite senang spot nama kite dlm list. Haha) then tgk nmbr grup. Grup 21. Then tgk jadual sbelah. Jeng3.. mmg btul la firasat tu td. Tahniah nanie! Pastu..aku pn cnfiden lagi. Aku trn gi tingkat bwh..tgk2 kt blk ni.eh silap plak.ni bilik cikgu daaa… so aku dh panic sket. Aku tanya smeeeeeeeeeee kosmet aku yg tgh naik tangga. Smeeeeeeeeeee jwb diorg xtau :( habis la gua…mcm mana ni?? Pastu gua pun pecut naik tangga smpai tingkt 4. Pancit doll…. Pastu gua tanya lagi.. last2 ada sorng nih.die call mmbe die. Tapi malang skali. Mmbe die tu just ckp. Kt bangunan baru. Itu gua pun tau.tp masalahnya kt mana??? Adui… die ckp lagi, pintu kaler oren. Aku tau 1 bangunan ni pintu kaler oren. So aku turun balik.. pakai kasut balik.. then lari2 anak ke bangunan tu. Trus masuk lif. Picit no 4. Xtau pehal nk naik tingkt 4. Kluar2 lif…senyap tipah… xde 1 bunyik pon.. tbe2 ada abg sorng nih.. mak aih gua ckp lu. Hensom nak mampus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<

(blogger bongok xnk samakan font aku)

lama siot xjmpe org hensom. Hahahahha. Pastu abg tu tgk aku cm.. “ERR…..nape ngn bdk ni…apa die buat kt sini..” aku pn cm..tinjau2 je.. jln2 selangkah dua tiga.. then aku patah balik.abg tu ada lagi. Aku pun..apa lagi. Hihi.. tanya aa die.. aduii.. hensom sgt laaaaaaaaaaaaa.. dh la tinggi (ke sbb aku yg pendek. Hahaha) bile aku tanya tu.. die cm tunduk/bongkok sket sbb aku cm terckp slow la plak. Gabra kot. Hahahha.. hihhhihi.. bedebar td trus hilang dohhh.. :P abg tu tgh pk2..die tanya experiment apa sme.. then die masuk blk.tanya mmbe die kot.. then die ckp. Bkn bangunan tu..kt sbelah tu ada bangunan lain.. maka.. aku pn ckp trima kasih..dan aku menuju kea rah yg die ckp tu.. and yelah..aku lambat. Fes time.. aku lmbt experiment. Kalau kene cikgu yg strict xingt dunia yg bulat nih..for sure die dh halau aku kua.. so..sib baik la xkene..mebe sbb aku pmpuan kot.n mmg tercungap2 time masuk tu.. so sensei pn tanya..xjmpe tmpt ke? Aku ckp la..haah..sesat..then.. buat la experiment. Cm biasa aa. X sah experiment bdk electric kalau xde baca2 voltmeter, ammeter dan meter lain. Then, habis..n it went well.. alhamdulillah.. end of story 1.. skang cte lain plak..cte pe eh. Hehe.. tah :P story no 2 ni kan.. aku xsure la nk cte kt sini ke x.sbb kalau ada org yg tertentu jumpa, naya aku kene keje nnti.. hurmm.. but it’s the truth. Kalau bleh nk je aku cte.. xpelah.aku hold dulu lah.. if ada org nk aku cte..then, baru aku cte k.hihi..k lah. Pening pale doh. Nk pk cmne nk buat report. Dh la kene tulih ngn tgn. Sangap btul… sakit tgn aku… (b4 dis copy paste je kt kmptr).. oklah..gua nk kua esok. (setelah sekian lama baru ada org terasa nk ajak).. ops. Monolog sahaja. K lah. Tido dulu. Nite2..

Alasan

.. yang slalu diucapkan oleh bibir2 manis lelaki2 di luar sana. dan di dalam sini juga.

1. Bila kita call, die x angkat2

-sori la sayang..i xprasan la..

-iskk.. fon tersilent plak.. lupa nk btulkn balik. sori eh?

-sayang..i tido la tadi.. sori k.. ni br je bgn..

-awak.. line xclear la tadi..sori i xleh angkat..

2. Bila kite sms, die x reply2

-sayang! kredit i habis laa >_<

-sori..i tido tadi.. (asyik tido je)

-xprasan la sms.. xbunyik plak fon ni.. sorry tau.. ni i dh reply la ni.. (asyik xprasan je.sms org lain prasan plak?)

-my fon rosak la Nanie.. i cant read sms-es (sbb tu la saya call. tp bile saya call, awak plak xangkat. getik betul)

-inbox full la. ur sms sampai lambat.. i baru terbaca je ni. so wats up?

3. Bila kita ajak jumpa

-isk..i busy la haritu.. ada meeting dgn boss.. (bila free?) xsure la Nanie..

-i penat la.. baru balik keje

-i tgh prob kewangan ni..lain kali k?

-my mum ada kat rumah la.. i xleh kluar..

-i dh ada janji nk jumpa ngn kwn lama..

-weekend la sayang..i nk rehat kt rumah..btw jalan jam je nnti.i xsuke la..

4. Bila kita tanya dia.. "sayang, knape xonline?"

-ala sayang... line xclear smalam.. ada org guna lappy i la.. (tapi bile check fesbuk, baru je update an hour ago?) ohh..tu.. i online kjp je.. bape min je..so i xonline kat chat..

-i kluar smlm..jumpa kwn..lepak2 gi tgk muvi..

-i thot sayang dh tido..so i xonline la..

Advices :

1. Stay out of long distance relationship (especially if ur a jealous type)

2. Always have a backup guy to cheer u up

3. Go out and hav fun, enjoy. Stop thinking of why he this why he that blah3..

4. You might wanna consider to stop wasting your time and money for such guy

apa lagi alasan2 yg laki slalu bagi eh?

the hell?!

wat the eff is wrong with me??

skema sgt? - nope

rajin sgt? - er. nehi babuji he.

giler ke hah. i dah la tido lewat malam tadi. bkn malam dh pun. its after subuh. 430am?

and then kecoh giler bgn awal.. buzz2 kosmet die ajak pegi class.

wtf? nanie!!!! class pukul 1245 laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why did u wake me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i havent been sleeping well lately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i look like a starving panda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (sbb ada eye bag n sbb slalu melapa)

@_@

seriously!

go the hell get some sleep b4 class TGH HARI nanti!

*marah dgn diri sendiri*

:strips naked. go back to sleep :

in love with a ghost

Yeah.. have u?

my friend is! in love with a ghost..

she's kinda gloomy person u know. but one day she came to skool all happy and.. sorta got a bright face and looked so shiny. ?? . i just cant describe. she smiles all the time. say hi to almost evryone that passes her. that smile. never fades away.

so i sat next to her at lunch. she was about to eat the salad when i asked her.. so..wats goin on? wats with your new happy personality?

why? cant i b happy? like anyone else does?

no.. not to offend u or somethin. but u never been this way. so, ther must b smthing that made u this way m i rite? so..shoot. tell me evrything.

she took a deep breath.. n munching her salad slowly. after the first gulp.. she began to open her mouth.

u know..it has been a year plus since i broke up rite.. and since then, i never want to trust them anymore. but.. i met someone.. someone who is not like the others out ther.. i..i just bumped into him.. one day on the way back home from school..

She took a pickle from the salad and popped it into her mouth..n seems a bit nervous to continue her story. but who m i to force her out. so, i just waited. the shrimp burger is pretty delicious today btw.

he.. well.. he's handsome.. handsome to me.. and..he's older than me. and..ohh! he got a beautiful smile..! but,.. what a waste..that no one could see it..

what dyu mean? i asked. n took a sip of choclate drink to clear my throat. she looks down and just playing with her salad.

uhm.. nothing. i mean. yea.. well.. because u guys never seen him yet. haha. so u guys couldnt see his beautiful smile.

haha.. duhh.. so. whens ur next date? maybe i could join to see his so beautiful smile. hehe..

she dropped the fork by accident. a klutz as always i thought. but thers smthing wrong. just that i dont know what wher and why. she picked it up and gathered her books and picked up her bag. ready for the next class? but its still too early to me?

haha.. we rarely meet u know. but he's always ther when i call. so, i guess if i wanna see him i'll.. call him, n then i'll.. call u?

sure..i guess.. cu around then? err... she disappeared in the crowd.. can i finish ur salad by the way?? i shouted at her. she turned to look at me n gave a quick nod. but.. wait... wait!!! u dropped smthing!

....... too late.

she dropped a book. but doesnt look like one of our textbooks. so i guess its okay if i just return it to her the next time i see her huh..? i went back to finish her salad. curious about this book. its the size of your palm. not very thick. classic.. wait.... is this.. her diary????

o.m.g..

guten nacht.

scheisse. verarscht. verdammt du penner. verpisst dich!

high five kid. i adore u. i feel like screaming n smashing somethings right now.

Dialogue : (german listening class)

Verarscht!

(tolak barang2 ketepi)

Macht dass schnelle!

(amik mouse)

Sofort!!

(ketuk2 meja sambil terenjut-enjut)

Mann mache daaa!!!

Ich will unreal tournament spielnn!! Loooosssssss!!!! Startee dass verdammte spiell!!

(jerit sambil kluarkan keyboard ke atas meja)

(tgh termengah sket, then die ketuk keyboard)

Starte!, dass!, spiell!! du hurensohn!! ich will spielennnn!!!!

(hentak2 kibod...dan bernafas dgn laju)...(telan air liur jap...)

ich sagt nicht schon ein mal! Los!

(tolak brg ketepi)

auf dem weg!!

(tgh btul2kn kedudukan mouse n kibod)

aarghhhh!

(klik2 mouse dgn marah sekali)

was ist dass denn?!! ohh mein gott wass ist geschehen!!!!

(ketuk2 kibod lagi)

ich will unreal verspielen!!!!!

oouoooaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!! aaaaghhhh!

schnelle start!! yeaahhh!

jetzt gehts los! jetzt gehts los.. jetzt gehts los!......

(ulang2 sambil gaya cm menari kt clubbing - tgn naik kt kepala)

spiele!!!! du wichser!! spieleee!!!!!! ich will unreal tournament spielennnnn!!!!!

(gasping for air)

es lädt..es lädt ..

(kepala kt kibod)

ich will nicht dass zu lädt!! wenn es lädt!! dann!! muss ich dann so lange wartenn!!!!

.....

ich will nicht warten ich willl es shsihoovpiieellleeeeeeeeee!!!!

(speaks incomprehensible..and gasping for air..)

positif denken! einfach positif denken.. gleich gehts los. yeahh... es geht los..

eeghhhhhhhehehehehe.. aahahahahahaaa..

eessss gehts lossss!!

(laughing like a lunatic)

aaaaaaa es geht losss!

aaaa du hurensohn!!

nimm dass!! friss dass! yaaaaaaaa!!!

ich hab ihn ungebracht!! wooohhhooooo!! woohhhhh!!

loss! los!! friss dass! friss weiter.. 67%&'$%&487 scheiße!! du hurensohn! ich hab dich unbrechen!!

(screaming.... and screaming... and screaming..)

ich drückt auf feuer!! wwwoooaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!

der der.. der escape knopf weg.. der escape knopf.. wo ist der? wo ist der escape knopf??!!

(manic sound)

wo ist der?? wo ist der?!! iihihihii...

(dh jmpe escape button)

ich brauch keine hilfe und support. ich brauch keine hilfe! ich brauch keine hilfe!! yaahahahaha...

okay. aku dh mls nk tulis. njoy watching it.

ba.bi.

No offense. But, seriously, how can some people still eat this? >_<

watch me?

This sem, ada la total dlm 6 classes. Including lab. Hopefully evrything goes well. especially lab.

Smalam smalam, i bought a birthday present for me dah. A bit early this year. Hihihi.. cant wait for its arrival at my door step. weeeeeeeeeee...........

Harini hari meng-cheat game. Because i hav no class today. Bila cheat game ni, sronok. Tapi bila dh dpt apa yg nak.. jadi x sronok dh. fufufu.. but sronok jgk. because i cn do it myself tanpa suruh org lain buatkan. still, thanx to all hackers out ther for tips n guidance.

xsaba nak balik lagi bulan 12 ni. i tink im starting to hate being here. no. im sure of it. yes, i hate being here. nak balik! tapi kali ni lone ranger :( xde org teman >_<

yes, its a lame post.. haihh.. T_T

homesick :(

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A4Vv3GPlm94&feature=related